Achilles Heel

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Unspoken Word Poetry

by ShinShin Writes

I close my eyes,

As my thoughts drift into the deepest

Oceans of regrets and misery

I close my eyes,

Remembering how you were once the reason behind the smile

And wondered why it faded so instantly

Like a candlelit blown by the wind of tragedy

You told me we’ll take things slow

You told me that we should know each other more

I didn’t realize I was in a game

Just to be a puzzle piece for you to get to the core

To the finish line to the prize of yes

You- were waiting for someone else

Yet you told me you love me

You acted as if it was real

Why did you have to break me into pieces?

Just when I’d closed it with a seal

Maybe one day we’ll see each other right pass into busy streets

As strangers who never met and not as friends who turned into lovers

Cuz that would be funny, WE were never were

And if you happen to ask me how I’ve been?

I’ll tell you one thing, I still love you

But that love won’t be as strong as how it used to be

I still love you but the pain was enough to set you free

I / could see clearly why you chose her over me

You did not see me as the bride you wanted to marry

Although we used to talk about the far future of a happy matrimony

Were you and me was still a possibility

You loved me only for convenience- only if she wasn’t around

I served to fill the empty gaps she left uncovered

And made me feel like I’m a clown

You saw me only as of the girl who’s desperate enough to be the other lover

If only I wasn’t blinded by the illusion love wanted me to see

And if only you told me the truth that your love was not meant for me

I could have saved myself- from the fall

I could have saved myself from you

I thought, I thought you were the one

I thought I finally found forever

It’s funny how it seems like yesterday

The laughter and the pain

Rushing all through one name

Your name

Achilles, you were truly my Achilles’ heel

You made me feel like I’m everything and yet you left me with nothing

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The story behind this piece. Way back year 2021, the month of July, I met a guy on a virtual society. We became friends got attached and things happen. He just left me hanging one day and blocked me for no reason. I, later on, found out that he was already in a relationship (his girlfriend, the one he courted finally said yes) I was clueless back then. I couldn't fathom the fact that I was made as an option and during the whole ordeal I was insanely infatuated with the idea that we could actually be 'something'. Of course, it stung I was not sure how to believe in such things again. (love) but miraculously after I poured my heart out in writing pieces like this I managed to move on and healed. To the one reading this. We do not deserve such hopeless romance where we are left hanging because we trusted and expected too much. DO NOT AVOID THE RED FLAGS. Sometimes our vision- our heads wear rose-tinted glasses and we filter out the negatives and focus on the positive sides and in the end, you'll end up in situations where you lose.

-ShinShin/SinePleurePlume